I Love You, I Forgive You, I Release You.
This is an ‘I love you, I forgive you, I release you’ vow to all the souls, *cough* men, who came and went, never having learned the act of courage.
To tell you I’m not mildly embarrassed of how long it’s taken me to learn this lesson, would be a lie. I know there are many women just like me making excuse after excuse for men who simply drink from your cup, rather than filling it up (preferably with a delicious mezcal cocktail, sake, or wine). But back to the point.
The thing is, I believe everyone functions from a place of honor and respect….call me a hopeless romantic.
Yet starting from this very moment, I’m ditching the hopeless, and running with honorable romantic; in honor of myself, my sacred boundaries, standards, and needs. No longer letting my cup be drained, but instead filled up so bountifully, it somehow magically transforms into a well of infinite spring water. Because true love, is infinite, and no matter how many heart aches I’ve suffered, no matter how many disappointments have come and gone, I will never give up on love, because I know love will never give up on me.
This union between Love & I, is an unbreakable, unshakeable, indomitable kind of faith in one another. And no matter how dark the night may get, we both made a vow with one another, that tomorrow the sun will always rise.
So, this…in a sense, is me renewing my vow with myself and Love.
We all receive major lessons in life, to wake us up, and shift us forward. Some are more painful and harder to fully integrate, and those usually come in a few more sets of waves than others – until we finally surrender. Because, the universe is always working FOR us, no matter how easy of a scapegoat she may be.
I was ‘gifted’ with wave upon wave, to teach me the art of seeing someone for who they truly are, even through all the smoke, mirrors, and 'fame.' And It took me until this very moment to not only surrender, yet this time, finally and fully have integrated the lesson, as if the download is effectively complete, 100% loaded and ready to activate. Call it un-fogging my third eye, unclogging my intuition, or harnessing my clairvoyant skills.
I am sitting here, in surrender, pondering over the fact whether I should make the dramatic bold moves of deleting numbers, unfollowing, and blocking, creating a ‘clean’ cut. Yet then I find myself, instead, choosing to act honorably, courageously, graciously, and simply close my eyes, open my heart and project one of the most powerful beams of self-love towards each man who decided to not act courageously, building an energetic protective shield, and exclaiming with all of my might: “Thank you, I love you, I forgive you, I release you.”
I close this vow with a pre-lude of what is to manifest in my newly instated vows to myself and the kind of love I believe in….
May only those who know the true definition and root meaning of COURAGE enter through my protective light vail.
For you lovely ladies, the root of ‘cour’ is French = Ceur, meaning Heart.
“It is only through the heart that one can see rightly.” – Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Author of The Little Prince
May we all find our righteous prince.
In bountiful love & light, Leyla